QUESTION MEME TIME
Mar. 12th, 2012 02:16 pmI will update this with comment count totals/tallies later because I am a weirdo and too lazy to look it up right this second.
But the point is. I have hit exactly 7300 comments with the voreloli, as of this comment, and she's off to a Happy Ending, and so IT IS TIME FOR THE LAST QUESTION MEME I CAN DO WITH HER (at least until I app her somewhere else shhh).
I am gonna open this up to anyone who wants to ask anything. Consider this an exit interview, of sorts, to get my thoughts together while I still wrap up her last post and start thinking about writing up a Postgame SOTU.
You can also ask questions about Asuka/Ginger if you want, or Gazelle over at
thusia. I GUESS.
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But the point is. I have hit exactly 7300 comments with the voreloli, as of this comment, and she's off to a Happy Ending, and so IT IS TIME FOR THE LAST QUESTION MEME I CAN DO WITH HER (
I am gonna open this up to anyone who wants to ask anything. Consider this an exit interview, of sorts, to get my thoughts together while I still wrap up her last post and start thinking about writing up a Postgame SOTU.
You can also ask questions about Asuka/Ginger if you want, or Gazelle over at
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RIGHT BEFORE I FORGET ... AGAIN ...
Jan. 3rd, 2012 09:12 pmI swear I will get more on top of things now that I'm off hiatus sob.
ANYWAY, THING ONE: while on hiatus, I talked to Zazzle about this and while we had to offscreen the actual giving of the quest, if your characters want to notice that Sword is tending to a garden Maleficent's gotten started somewhere near(ish) Onyx where things grow, FEEL FREE TO NOTICE. It's a regular, daily thing, her getting her hands dirty trimming & tending to the plants there, and every day there's a little bit more of them for her to work on, so that's a thing.
This is all for a glass key for Drift! You can't say she doesn't do things for you, bb.
THING TWO: she has some sort of charm on her wrist, either ... a bracelet or a bracer of some kind, I keep forgetting to ask which & will edit this once I ask Zazzle whups. This is for when she has THE WORST OF THE HUNGER PANGS, she can touch it and it acts as an immediate splash of metaphorical cold water on the urge to eat people.
This is also in concert with Maleficent giving her the option to come spend some time chilling with her, alone, where Mally will act as a dampener on the hunger as well (much like how she gave Sion some pain relief in the past).
As a note, these are both solutions handed down by Mally in the immediate aftermath (as in, while Obsidian still has her pinned under his weight) of Sword's thread with Yukio, Josh, and Obsidian, so provided their players are cool with having that convo handwaved, the three of them know about these options for sure!
Please note: these are all dependent on Sword voluntarily choosing to take these relief options ... it's still her choice to refuse to eat people because it's inconvenient. She is definitely still a potential threat.
THING THREE: Sword also now has a firecat! Courtesy Firebird. It is a real, live animal. It acts just like a cat does, and will nuzzle, hiss, claw, and purr like any living thing would, because it is alive, she did not pick the option that only went halfway on that. For people who played in Firebird's exploradora sorta-heartgame yes it is the firecat you could make by touching the cat skeleton's heart ... she took her time completing the quest she asked Firebird for it. It eats very dry things and nothing with water in it. Also it's a she.
Firecat still has no name, because Sword is hilarious.
... OKAY I THINK THOSE ARE THE THINGS I KEEP FORGETTING. SORRY 'BOUT THAT.
ANYWAY, THING ONE: while on hiatus, I talked to Zazzle about this and while we had to offscreen the actual giving of the quest, if your characters want to notice that Sword is tending to a garden Maleficent's gotten started somewhere near(ish) Onyx where things grow, FEEL FREE TO NOTICE. It's a regular, daily thing, her getting her hands dirty trimming & tending to the plants there, and every day there's a little bit more of them for her to work on, so that's a thing.
This is all for a glass key for Drift! You can't say she doesn't do things for you, bb.
THING TWO: she has some sort of charm on her wrist, either ... a bracelet or a bracer of some kind, I keep forgetting to ask which & will edit this once I ask Zazzle whups. This is for when she has THE WORST OF THE HUNGER PANGS, she can touch it and it acts as an immediate splash of metaphorical cold water on the urge to eat people.
This is also in concert with Maleficent giving her the option to come spend some time chilling with her, alone, where Mally will act as a dampener on the hunger as well (much like how she gave Sion some pain relief in the past).
As a note, these are both solutions handed down by Mally in the immediate aftermath (as in, while Obsidian still has her pinned under his weight) of Sword's thread with Yukio, Josh, and Obsidian, so provided their players are cool with having that convo handwaved, the three of them know about these options for sure!
Please note: these are all dependent on Sword voluntarily choosing to take these relief options ... it's still her choice to refuse to eat people because it's inconvenient. She is definitely still a potential threat.
THING THREE: Sword also now has a firecat! Courtesy Firebird. It is a real, live animal. It acts just like a cat does, and will nuzzle, hiss, claw, and purr like any living thing would, because it is alive, she did not pick the option that only went halfway on that. For people who played in Firebird's exploradora sorta-heartgame yes it is the firecat you could make by touching the cat skeleton's heart ... she took her time completing the quest she asked Firebird for it. It eats very dry things and nothing with water in it. Also it's a she.
Firecat still has no name, because Sword is hilarious.
... OKAY I THINK THOSE ARE THE THINGS I KEEP FORGETTING. SORRY 'BOUT THAT.
SKILL SIX: NOTES + PERMISSIONS
Dec. 15th, 2011 01:36 pmTHERE IS A VERY IMPORTANT NOTE ABOUT THIS SKILL AT THE BOTTOM OF THIS ENTRY. PLEASE READ IT BEFORE OPENING THE CUT/READING THE REST OF THE POST ABOVE IT.
Also, content note for people-eating and other assorted conceptual tropes.
Skill six: ( Vore skill - triggers active craving for human flesh )
( THE ACTUAL PERMISSIONS SECTION, WHICH ALSO GOT TOO LONG AND THUS ALSO GOES UNDER A CUT )
VERY IMPORTANT NOTE. PLEASE READ.
This is by a very wide margin the skill and side effect that makes Riful the most threatening to the rest of the characters currently in-game. This includes her strength and everything else, because at least those don't give her the active burning desire to tear into everything fleshy that isn't a horrible ping that she sees. So! This is an opt-in post, with bonus extra important opt-out included because I have no other earthly idea how to swing this right now. IN OTHER WORDS: Please respond if you would be okay with something happening (and please unfold the Permissions section if you're still unsure what that entails), and also please respond if you are absolutely not okay with hearing about it so I know how to juggle these things as best as I can possibly manage and so anyone else who I have to bring into this can be referred to this and can know who to avoid having it ICly come up around. Again, just so the opt-out part is 100% crystal clear in terms of what it is for, PLEASE RESPOND IF YOU ABSOLUTELY 100% WANT NOTHING TO DO WITH KNOWING ANYTHING ABOUT THIS OR THE FALLOUT FROM IT, because yours is the situation I am most worried about causing trouble for.
I mean, I honestly don't even know how much of a problem that last part will be, but at the same time I do not want to just pretend it might not be a thing and then have someone be severely upset because of my negligence, so!
PLEASE READ THE ABOVE BEFORE COMMENTING TO THIS POST.
Also, content note for people-eating and other assorted conceptual tropes.
Skill six: ( Vore skill - triggers active craving for human flesh )
( THE ACTUAL PERMISSIONS SECTION, WHICH ALSO GOT TOO LONG AND THUS ALSO GOES UNDER A CUT )
VERY IMPORTANT NOTE. PLEASE READ.
This is by a very wide margin the skill and side effect that makes Riful the most threatening to the rest of the characters currently in-game. This includes her strength and everything else, because at least those don't give her the active burning desire to tear into everything fleshy that isn't a horrible ping that she sees. So! This is an opt-in post, with bonus extra important opt-out included because I have no other earthly idea how to swing this right now. IN OTHER WORDS: Please respond if you would be okay with something happening (and please unfold the Permissions section if you're still unsure what that entails), and also please respond if you are absolutely not okay with hearing about it so I know how to juggle these things as best as I can possibly manage and so anyone else who I have to bring into this can be referred to this and can know who to avoid having it ICly come up around. Again, just so the opt-out part is 100% crystal clear in terms of what it is for, PLEASE RESPOND IF YOU ABSOLUTELY 100% WANT NOTHING TO DO WITH KNOWING ANYTHING ABOUT THIS OR THE FALLOUT FROM IT, because yours is the situation I am most worried about causing trouble for.
I mean, I honestly don't even know how much of a problem that last part will be, but at the same time I do not want to just pretend it might not be a thing and then have someone be severely upset because of my negligence, so!
PLEASE READ THE ABOVE BEFORE COMMENTING TO THIS POST.
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Dec. 5th, 2011 09:48 am.... I HAVE EXACTLY 4500 COMMENTS ON THIS ACCOUNT AS OF THIS MOMENT, LIKE HELL AM I LETTING THIS OPPORTUNITY SLIP BY ME
QUESTION MEME.
For Sword, I promise to actually be better about answering questions this time than the last time, ahahahahah sob sorry.
Also I reserve the right to draw something stupid in response rather than attempt words. Or someecards you.
QUESTION MEME.
For Sword, I promise to actually be better about answering questions this time than the last time, ahahahahah sob sorry.
Also I reserve the right to draw something stupid in response rather than attempt words. Or someecards you.
daily life/quirks meme
Nov. 18th, 2011 10:40 amRepostin' cause I can and because I am adding to it like a winner. Also because NOW IT COMES WITH BONUS ART.
( behavior, appearance (with art!), quirks )
( behavior, appearance (with art!), quirks )
heartgame writeup '-'
Nov. 15th, 2011 08:19 pmRiful's Heart took place here.
( PREGAMING )
( THE HEART GAME )
POSTGAME, IN SUM:
What does this even.
What.
What did you do. What did I do. AM I EVEN PLAYING RIFUL ANY MORE. (Answer: yes, actually, which will be obvious as I get her out more, just ... just ... with her axis shifted ... a bit ...)
BE CAREFUL WITH HEART GAMES AND CLEVER PLANS, CHILDREN, SOMETIMES IT DOES THINGS.
I don't know I am out of smart words. If you ... have questions ............ sure ..... I'll answer them .........
( PREGAMING )
( THE HEART GAME )
POSTGAME, IN SUM:
What does this even.
What.
What did you do. What did I do. AM I EVEN PLAYING RIFUL ANY MORE. (Answer: yes, actually, which will be obvious as I get her out more, just ... just ... with her axis shifted ... a bit ...)
BE CAREFUL WITH HEART GAMES AND CLEVER PLANS, CHILDREN, SOMETIMES IT DOES THINGS.
I don't know I am out of smart words. If you ... have questions ............ sure ..... I'll answer them .........
PREGAME SURVEY
Nov. 10th, 2011 05:19 pmI AM STEALING THIS FROM ROXAS/VENTUS BECAUSE IT REALLY IS JUST THAT GREAT AND ENCAPSULATES THE RANGE I NEED and also I'm stressing out and don't want to take time away from planning things to rewrite eeeverything in my own wordssss sorry.
Anyway, if you're playing in Riful's heart ( please fill this out! )
Anyway, if you're playing in Riful's heart ( please fill this out! )
QUOTES & QUESTIONS MEME
Oct. 5th, 2011 04:10 pmidk I felt like it. Five quotes that describe, etc, You know the drill.
All sanity depends on this: that it should be a delight to feel heat strike the skin, a delight to stand upright, knowing the bones are moving easily under the flesh.
-Doris Lessing
I stopped believing in Santa Claus when my mother took me to see him in a department store, and he asked for my autograph.
-Shirley Temple
The vote means nothing to women. We should be armed.
-Edna O'Brien
There are always survivors at a massacre. Among the victors, if nowhere else.
-Lois McMaster Bujold
An unhurried sense of time is in itself a form of wealth.
-Bonnie Friedman
This is also now a QUESTIONS MEME because I also felt like that. I play Sword/Riful here, on Onyx, and that is it. I will also answer questions about Asuka/Ginger if you really have something burning to ask about. :U
All sanity depends on this: that it should be a delight to feel heat strike the skin, a delight to stand upright, knowing the bones are moving easily under the flesh.
-Doris Lessing
I stopped believing in Santa Claus when my mother took me to see him in a department store, and he asked for my autograph.
-Shirley Temple
The vote means nothing to women. We should be armed.
-Edna O'Brien
There are always survivors at a massacre. Among the victors, if nowhere else.
-Lois McMaster Bujold
An unhurried sense of time is in itself a form of wealth.
-Bonnie Friedman
This is also now a QUESTIONS MEME because I also felt like that. I play Sword/Riful here, on Onyx, and that is it. I will also answer questions about Asuka/Ginger if you really have something burning to ask about. :U
SKILL FIVE/POWER LIMIT NOTES
Sep. 28th, 2011 09:20 amThis is a limited opt-in skill for other players to take advantage of if they wish, so if you want it to apply to your character, comment here and we'll hash a thing out.
SKILL FIVE: ( Youki sense )
Not precisely relevant to this specific skill, so it's not under a cut: for purposes of gameplay in Aather, Natsume/Winter's supernatural-creature-punching skill now works on Riful too. :B
( Also I wrote words on Riful and the power limit: warning for grotesque and violent imagery in picture form at the very beginning of it )
SKILL FIVE: ( Youki sense )
Not precisely relevant to this specific skill, so it's not under a cut: for purposes of gameplay in Aather, Natsume/Winter's supernatural-creature-punching skill now works on Riful too. :B
( Also I wrote words on Riful and the power limit: warning for grotesque and violent imagery in picture form at the very beginning of it )
MEMORY SIX
Sep. 22nd, 2011 07:30 pmMemory: ( Fighting Alica and Beth; watching Dauf die and then dying herself )
WHAT SHE GETS:
--ahahahah oh jesus christ
--THIS IS ONE OF THE LONGEST MEMORIES IN HER REGISTRY GUYS
--.... oh ...
--EVERYTHING IS TERRIBLE
--what. WHAT. WHAT.
--EVERYTHING IS TERRIBLE
--..... she died ....
--and ... so did the hot moron ...
--she wouldn't leave him, even when he begged her to
--I HAVE NEVER BEEN SO SCARED IN MY LIFE AND THEN I DIED
--I DIED!!!!!!
--what the fuck, what are these things ... DS&Y#IOAAR&YSEJKH HOW CAN THEY FUCKING EAT ME
--oh my god Dauf ... you should have tried to get away
--welp the organization sure is dedicated to being fucking fantastically monstrous beyond even my expectations aren't they
WHAT THIS MEANS:
+500 gutpunches yay
+50 IF YOU GET YOURSELF HURT FOR ME I AM BREAKING UP WITH YOU!
+100 I hate everything
+60 what am I even doing
+60 I will kill her, I will find a way to kill that bitch, I will not rest until I see her destroyed
+30 ALL THE EMOTIONAL TURMOIL, ALL OF IT
+10 haha wow she sure picked a good time to get jostled enough in the emotions to have difficulty controlling her responses to them
+AND THEN, RIFUL WAS CATATONIC FOR AN ENTIRE IC DAY.
NOTES:
I THINK THIS MEMORY IS SHAREABLE AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA THAT'S TERRIBLE
WHAT SHE GETS:
--ahahahah oh jesus christ
--THIS IS ONE OF THE LONGEST MEMORIES IN HER REGISTRY GUYS
--.... oh ...
--EVERYTHING IS TERRIBLE
--what. WHAT. WHAT.
--EVERYTHING IS TERRIBLE
--..... she died ....
--and ... so did the hot moron ...
--she wouldn't leave him, even when he begged her to
--I HAVE NEVER BEEN SO SCARED IN MY LIFE AND THEN I DIED
--I DIED!!!!!!
--what the fuck, what are these things ... DS&Y#IOAAR&YSEJKH HOW CAN THEY FUCKING EAT ME
--oh my god Dauf ... you should have tried to get away
--welp the organization sure is dedicated to being fucking fantastically monstrous beyond even my expectations aren't they
WHAT THIS MEANS:
+500 gutpunches yay
+50 IF YOU GET YOURSELF HURT FOR ME I AM BREAKING UP WITH YOU!
+100 I hate everything
+60 what am I even doing
+60 I will kill her, I will find a way to kill that bitch, I will not rest until I see her destroyed
+30 ALL THE EMOTIONAL TURMOIL, ALL OF IT
+10 haha wow she sure picked a good time to get jostled enough in the emotions to have difficulty controlling her responses to them
+AND THEN, RIFUL WAS CATATONIC FOR AN ENTIRE IC DAY.
NOTES:
I THINK THIS MEMORY IS SHAREABLE AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA THAT'S TERRIBLE
plurk essays for posterity
Jul. 23rd, 2011 07:05 pmA lot of this is working through how to handle Riful's reentry, so the process evolves as it goes - it became a matter of settling down some of the uncomfortable feeling of having a quantum reactionspace for the character's behavior into a more manageable format and also helped me solidify my own perspective for not just playing Riful in RP, but writing her in fic later on, and should be taken as a running commentary on a work in progress rather than a definitive statement. But there's so much of it that I found useful to get out and to be able to put into coherent form that I'm repro-ing it here to have so I can look back on it and work off the suggestions and aspirations I accumulated as a result; not all of this will likely be relevant to the actual playing out of tags, but it will all have an effect on the context of those tags, I think.
( plurk #1 - codetrainwreck: [fred/blather] i said i needed to get some riful stuff straight b4 she shows up in aather again so i'm using this plurk for it )
( plurk #2 - codetrainwreck: [another day, another bout of blather about riful] )
( plurk #3 - codetrainwreck: [oh god she's talking about the voreloli again, mute it] )
And I have at least one more essay I want to do like this so this will be updated with any other essays I do later as well. IN FUTURE, ALL MY ESSAYS WILL START OUT ON PLURK. YES. It is apparently the least emotionally stressful format to put coherent words onto for me, as I have ... problems with organization and my ability to seem like I'm capable of it.
So there. That is a thing.
( plurk #1 - codetrainwreck: [fred/blather] i said i needed to get some riful stuff straight b4 she shows up in aather again so i'm using this plurk for it )
( plurk #2 - codetrainwreck: [another day, another bout of blather about riful] )
( plurk #3 - codetrainwreck: [oh god she's talking about the voreloli again, mute it] )
And I have at least one more essay I want to do like this so this will be updated with any other essays I do later as well. IN FUTURE, ALL MY ESSAYS WILL START OUT ON PLURK. YES. It is apparently the least emotionally stressful format to put coherent words onto for me, as I have ... problems with organization and my ability to seem like I'm capable of it.
So there. That is a thing.
I've spent the past several months looking for work - and it took a while and it hasn't been the most fun, but I finally managed to get a lock on a job this week. However, it has variable hours - I won't know what my schedule looks like for the next day until end of shift the previous day. Sooooo this makes judging my ability to make games and be around when most everyone else is a little difficult.
On the other hand, I can make a reasonable guess that most of those hours will likely be evening hours EST, with the exception of the weekend (in which case they miiiiiight be "all day" - I work as a line cook in a restaurant), so ... chances are high if I am able to make a game in the future, given when they usually happen, it will be a complete surprise to me and to you.
SO YEAH. JUST A HEADS UP. Asuka and Riful will likely be a lot scarcer than they usually are.
This is going to cut back a whole hell of a lot on my activity simply due to never being around when anyone else is, I can already see it. :(
On the other hand, I can make a reasonable guess that most of those hours will likely be evening hours EST, with the exception of the weekend (in which case they miiiiiight be "all day" - I work as a line cook in a restaurant), so ... chances are high if I am able to make a game in the future, given when they usually happen, it will be a complete surprise to me and to you.
SO YEAH. JUST A HEADS UP. Asuka and Riful will likely be a lot scarcer than they usually are.
This is going to cut back a whole hell of a lot on my activity simply due to never being around when anyone else is, I can already see it. :(
MEMORY FIVE
Mar. 25th, 2011 12:04 amMemory: ( Galatea explaining who Riful is to Clare )
WHAT THIS MEANS:
+50 trolldere for Claymores
+20 will do "random" shit if bored
+20 apex predator egotism
+20 bet you forgot i knew tactics
+15 ... actually less likely to murder/maim now ha ha ha oops
+10 beatings are an acceptable precursor to giving/getting sex!
+10 if nothing "interesting" enough happens will probs literally sleep for a week
.... oh yeah the post-Awakening-memory violence/sex high status effect wore off between day 30 and 31. We now return you to regular Riful levels of unsafe.
WHAT THIS MEANS:
+50 trolldere for Claymores
+20 will do "random" shit if bored
+20 apex predator egotism
+20 bet you forgot i knew tactics
+15 ... actually less likely to murder/maim now ha ha ha oops
+10 beatings are an acceptable precursor to giving/getting sex!
+10 if nothing "interesting" enough happens will probs literally sleep for a week
.... oh yeah the post-Awakening-memory violence/sex high status effect wore off between day 30 and 31. We now return you to regular Riful levels of unsafe.
ONYX STARTER MEMORY/SKILLS
Mar. 12th, 2011 10:26 amMEMORY: ( Awakening for the first time )
In sum, at last for the next few days ICly:
+300 physicality
+100 "hello, i'm your monster, love me"
+80 sex drive
+50 random violence for a couple days (including but not limited to: backhands, snapping necks if it's annoying or distasteful enough - LET ME KNOW IF YOU WANT TO RISK THAT)
+30 trolling tendencies
+10 desire to get the rest of her back.
Some of these effects will fade as the intensity of the memory fades, and she'll go back to just being good old Riful who lazes around and doesn't really do anything much except troll and kill things for fun and eat and sleep, but right now: CONTACT HIGH, EVERYBODY WATCH OUT. When she Awakened in canon she was actually so revved up by it she slaughtered nearly the entire Organization before calming down and probably going to sleep.
This is just the memory, there's sensations and drives missing, and she's got monsters to kill to work off a lot of the excess steam, but nevertheless. TAKE THE WARNING SERIOUSLY. It'll be fine if you don't want anything to happen - just, hey, comment here if you do, and we'll work something out.
SKILL ONE: ( COMBAT EXPERIENCE of the kind expected of a former Claymore #1 )
SKILL TWO: ( Regenerating from massive damage (UP TO A POINT) )
In sum, at last for the next few days ICly:
+300 physicality
+100 "hello, i'm your monster, love me"
+80 sex drive
+50 random violence for a couple days (including but not limited to: backhands, snapping necks if it's annoying or distasteful enough - LET ME KNOW IF YOU WANT TO RISK THAT)
+30 trolling tendencies
+10 desire to get the rest of her back.
Some of these effects will fade as the intensity of the memory fades, and she'll go back to just being good old Riful who lazes around and doesn't really do anything much except troll and kill things for fun and eat and sleep, but right now: CONTACT HIGH, EVERYBODY WATCH OUT. When she Awakened in canon she was actually so revved up by it she slaughtered nearly the entire Organization before calming down and probably going to sleep.
This is just the memory, there's sensations and drives missing, and she's got monsters to kill to work off a lot of the excess steam, but nevertheless. TAKE THE WARNING SERIOUSLY. It'll be fine if you don't want anything to happen - just, hey, comment here if you do, and we'll work something out.
SKILL ONE: ( COMBAT EXPERIENCE of the kind expected of a former Claymore #1 )
SKILL TWO: ( Regenerating from massive damage (UP TO A POINT) )
MEMORY THREE/SKILL TWO
Mar. 4th, 2011 11:51 amMEMORY: ( Katea (and untold other Claymores)'s Awakening being useless; Jean refusing to Awaken )
in sum:
+20 more UNSAFETY
+20 less likely to care about minimal planning/improvisational tendencies
SKILL: ( SURVIVAL SKILLS )
in sum:
+20 more UNSAFETY
+20 less likely to care about minimal planning/improvisational tendencies
SKILL: ( SURVIVAL SKILLS )
MEMORY TWO
Feb. 25th, 2011 01:13 amMemory: ( Torturing Katea, Jean, and the other Claymores until they Awakened )
WHAT THIS MEANS:
+50 idle torture tendencies
+50 DO NOT KNOW IF WANT re: being somebody's "tool" anymore ... but I guess I'm okay with it for now, I was okay with it when it was a road to self-improvement the last time too, this method deserves the same fair shake I gave that one
+50 will kill shit if it looks like the best option
+30 maiming makes people stronger if you know they'll survive long enough ...?
+30 lack of empathy for other people's discomfort
+20 already planned to get stronger, sup, good to know I can/did/will again
+10 total lack of bodily shame - new environment, new rules, I DON'T MIND??? but .... hnnnngh riful + body ... is an essay I should write ....
+10 weird sociopathically maternal affection for all Claymores that translates to guaranteed stalking if any show up in Aather
+10 "you're dumb but you're cute; now punch me and i'll take you home ♥"
+100 UNSAFETY
WHAT THIS MEANS:
+50 idle torture tendencies
+50 DO NOT KNOW IF WANT re: being somebody's "tool" anymore ... but I guess I'm okay with it for now, I was okay with it when it was a road to self-improvement the last time too, this method deserves the same fair shake I gave that one
+50 will kill shit if it looks like the best option
+30 maiming makes people stronger if you know they'll survive long enough ...?
+30 lack of empathy for other people's discomfort
+20 already planned to get stronger, sup, good to know I can/did/will again
+10 total lack of bodily shame - new environment, new rules, I DON'T MIND??? but .... hnnnngh riful + body ... is an essay I should write ....
+10 weird sociopathically maternal affection for all Claymores that translates to guaranteed stalking if any show up in Aather
+10 "you're dumb but you're cute; now punch me and i'll take you home ♥"
+100 UNSAFETY